When nights are long and friends are few,
I sit by my window and think of you.
A silent whisper, a silent prayer,
I wish you were here.

Yup, this little paragraph of words means a lot to me. Old story~

I was awfully quiet this morning. I guess the whole class could feel it. So there are people who care about me, my secret guardian angels. :)
I can't believe I thought he was one of them just a month ago. A real guardian angel would rather get hurt than hurt you, ever. Anyway, I kept telling everyone it was because I was sleepy, but it wasn't because of that. I mean, I actually stayed awake during Chem Lecture today, and found it pretty interesting, to be honest. I was just lost in my thoughts. Don't even ask what these thoughts were, a complete mess, a melting pot of emotions/feelings/milo(yum!). My "guardian angels" could tell it wasn't because of sleep deprivation, but didn't force anything out. I owe you big time for that.
Then, nearing the afternoon, my spirits got lifted by the usual nonsense of Durga and Faisal. This class is just really special in that way. Getting my Maths test result was a bummer, Mdm Lim asked me if I was doing okay. At that point, I really wanted to just burst out crying. :/

I've been hurt enough by caring for people I thought cared. I'm going to try something different and more fulfilling. I'm going to re-direct this care to people who deserve it so much more, my classmates, my teachers.

Najmah told me on Twitter today, "There are many fish in the ocean."
I reckon she guessed what was wrong. Um, I think I'm going to be allergic to seafood for awhile, I got food poisoning the last time, and trust me, my stomach was not the only thing that got hurt.

Gahh, I can't believe Valentine's is coming to mercilessly mock at me like it does every year, haha! I think this year will be the first year I'm not secretly hoping for my first Valentine's present from a guy. Yes, I've never had a Valentine, not even a fake one. You can stop laughing right about NOW. ;)
Every year, I secretly yearn for that small anonymous note, preferably sprayed with perfume, about how someone finds my personality attractive. Hehe, I'm sure you all have those secret desires, so shush!

With Love,